This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Jaylie Guerrero who grew her angel wings on February 15,2005 and was born on February 17, 2005 in Puerto Rico. We Will always have you in our hearts!          

         
                       
                                             

Our Precious little angel.  I wonder why each every day of my life!  I know I don't have the right to ask why, I know I have no right to wonder and demand answers but I still do.  With a pain in my heart that no words can describe every day that goes by, little by little my heart sheds a piece.  So many questions, so many thoughts, so many, so many, so many.  This is the story of  the most precious little angel GOD added to his beautiful heaven. 

(mommies story)

I still remember it as if it would of happened to me yesterday it was Feb.14, 2005 me and my boyfriend(at that time now husband) a normal couple just waiting for our baby girl we were so excited very young but so wanted and couldn't wait to have her in our arms to kiss,hug and just cuddle with her never did we imagine that we wouldn't have the chance. Valentines day went by normal my baby kicking and feeling heavier and heavier everyday she was due April 12, 2005 so she was getting bigger by the minute I remember going to school and my mom calling me and asking me what I got for valentines I told her “mom I can't talk I am at school" So she told me she would call me later  she was in Orlando and I lived in P. R. She had just had my baby sister a preemie due in Feb born in December, so she was going through a lot but we were always there for each other she also had me at a very young age so we're like best friends As the night came I felt a little strange but thought it was normal just feeling those small contractions but I had felt them before and since I had been hospitalized a lot during the pregnancy due to a lot of urine infections I didn't imagine it would be something so serious I went to bed and at like 2 a.m. all of the sudden I just jumped up in bed and first thing that comes to my head is I don't feel the baby so I sat there with out knowing what to do trying to make her move I kept moving my belly talking to her telling her to please move I was there like half an hour and I hate the fact that I didn't even think of waking my husband up and asking him to take me to the hospital I kept trying to make her move and for a min. I felt something moving it wasn't a kick but something moved very lightly so I was like ok she's ok what I didn't know was that she already had grew her little wings she was already going to heaven and maybe that was her just saying goodbye. In the morning Feb. 15,2005 I didn't say anything to my husband I was so young and it was my first baby I didn't even know alot about stillborns I had heard a story about a girl who at nine months lost her baby due to an umbilical cord accident but I always thought that wouldn't happen to me; so I ate breakfast as usual and I felt strange because she always moved a lot when I ate so I called my grandmother who was the only person I had here in P. R and I asked her if baby's moved all the time and I remember her telling me yes but they do go to sleep to what she didn't know was what had happened to me during the night so I went to her house by that time I was feeling stronger contractions and I explained what happened to her so we decide to call my doctor I remember telling the secretary I am feeling contractions and I don't feel her move and she replies about the contractions that's normal but if you don't feel her move you need to come in fast! So I call my husband who was at work he has no clue about anything and I tell him we need to go to the hospital because I don't feel the baby so as usual he left his job fast and picked me up I say as usual because anything I needed he was there. The ride there was the worst ever I kept thinking why didn't I wake him up I didn't know but I can imagine I felt it in my bones I knew my baby girl had left us I really wished it was just that she was being lazy like my uncles wife told me before we left ... When we got to the doctors office they rushed me in a.s.a.p and started getting the cold gel ready as they always did every time I went in and I already knew where to look to see her little heart beat fast as soon as he put the machine on my belly I didn't even want to look but I had to I had to see her heart beat it was just a simple misunderstanding I had to see it I just had to!!! my grandma was sitting there with me holding my hand and my husband was out in the waiting room just waiting as soon as I feel the cold gel on my belly I looked and I couldn't believe it where was it I couldn't see anything just my baby girl there with no heart beat the doctor didn't even have to tell me I already knew but didn't believe it till he said it himself the words that broke my heart in millions of pieces "your baby has no heart beat"" I am so sorry" I just closed my eyes and my world went blank I remember my grandmother running out of the room to get my husband and as I got off the bed he walked in the room and I just fell into his arms and cryed and cryed and screamed and hated myself for not waking him up maybe I could of saved her!! WHY WHY WHY I just kept screaming so we walked into the Dr. office and he explained how he didn't know what went wrong everything was normal all of the labs were normal he also told us the best thing was to go home and go in to the hospital early in the morning to induce my labor I found that so strange and rude but I didn't even know what to think at that time I was in shock I just remember walking out into the waiting room and looking at everyone stare at me and I even saw some crying they already knew since it was a small office I guess they heard what was going on. That night a lot of family went over I just layed in bed and cryed didn't want to see anyone but I knew they were there because they cared and wanted to be there for me I remember my godfather coming in and just grabbing me start to cry I love you tio Melo! The next morning Feb 16,2005 we woke up really early and went to the hospital I took all the papers so they already knew they put me in a private room because they didn't want to put me in a room with a women who was still pregnant with a live baby or a women who had just gave birth to a live baby I felt a little better because of that so the gave me med's to induce my labor and hours went by and everytime they checked me I had no progress it was already midnight and the next day Feb 17,2005 and nothing so at around 5.pm that day I told the Dr. I couldn't take it anymore I was in so much pain body and soul and I just wanted her out so we decided to have a C-section I knew it was going to be hard but I felt like nothing was going to be more painful then having to think my baby is not alive inside me. So around 6 or 7 p.m. Jaylie Annette Guerrero was born so perfect so white just like me I was so drugged up that I only remember asking to give her a kiss and to see her hands mind you all of this time we didn't know why my baby had passed away at 32 weeks gestation she weighed 4 lbs 12 oz 16 inches long she was so beautiful. The only thing I remember clearly was the Dr. showing me the knot she had in her umbilical cord that was the cause of my baby's death I was so devastated I kept thinking how couldn't they see that in the ultrasounds I don't know but I think that was the scientific reason why the real reason is because our Lord needed my baby with him and all the other angels she was to beautiful for this world!! We had a memorial service for her and so many people went she touched so many peoples lives. Nine months later not expecting it I find out I am pregnant and on July 6,2006 I had a beautiful baby boy who will never take Jaylies place but made my heart feel so much better and then 7 months later I become pregnant for my baby girl Genesis God took one and gave me two! They will never replace her but they made me and Daddy and Grandma and Great grandma feel so much relief! WE LOVE YOU BABY J

GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN!








(Grandmas Story)                                                                    

So peaceful, so still, so pink with red lips, Snow White, that's what I named her in my head when I walked in the Funeral home that sad day in Puerto Rico.  As I held my daughter's hand and tried to find strength from where I didn't have.  My knees were shaking, my heart was aching, I felt as if I was dying as I took every step with my precious baby girl as she walked and sqeezed my hand as if she was saying to me, "I can't momma, I can't!  See, this is my grandaughter, my first granddaughter, and it kills me because I had to see her for the first time laying in that white little casket!!!!!                                                          
                                                     

It was back in August of 2004 that my mother told me my 17 year old was expecting a baby, Julie that's my 17 year old.  She lives in Puerto Rico with my mom and her boyfriend.  I live in Florida with my other kids.  I too was expecting my fourth child in August I was 3months.  Julie and my mom decided to come spend a month with me, due to some complications I was having.  Julie and I were inserparable, we ate all the time and talked about our babies and names.  When Hurricane Charley arrived the second day she was here, I protected her with my life.  I took all my kids to the bathroom and made sure they were safe, including and especially Julie, because I didn't want anything to happen to her or to her unborn baby.  My mom and Julie went back to Puerto Rico on September.  Julie and I would speak everyday on the phone to find out how our bellies were doing.  When I went into early labor in December, Julie would call me at the hospital and she and I would share our thoughts and plans.  I was scared though, I didn't think my baby was going to make it.  I was hospitalized for several weeks, I kept assuring my daughter she would be fine and that so would I.  On December 27th 2004 my baby was born premature at 29 weeks.  She was 4 pounds and 5 ozs.  Her name Leytsa Rianne Perez.  Perfect,  10 toes 10 fingers, pink skin, perfect just perfect.  She would have to spend 2 months in the NICU but that's ok I thought she was perfect.  Was breathing on her own and was just fine.  I couldn't believe it!  Julie was so happy, I remember her telling me, "That's no fair, I want mine already." I remember me telling her "NO, don't say that, you want to have yours when she is ready, not now, because then she has to stay in the hospital like mine".  We giggled and that was that.  On February 4th I got to bring my Leytsa home.  She was so precious, I couldn't believe I had another baby, another piece of me in my life.  I stared at her all night and did not want to put her down.  I kept checking her every minute.  I didn't sleep at all for several nights. 

                                             



I am grieving with my daughter everyday we talk about it, everyday we cry.  I wish everyday I could erase her pain, or that I could get inside her and take all the pain and sorrow from inside her and take it in me.  I am supposed to protect her from everything and I can't do anything for her through this moment of horrible pain.